All I wanted in my life was to have a family that stuck together through thick & thin, but what did I get? I got parents who barely talked to one another and eventually that led to secrets rising to the surface. The ice broke. My heart broke. I could see the simple conclusion, but they made everything even more complicated with their thoughtless decisions. A Father shouldn't be your "friend." He should be the one not allowing you to date a boy because he has a mysterious vibe. A Mother shouldn't be so depressed. She should be out with her friends feeling like a teenager again doing the things she loves to do. Yet when you're that closed minded, you forget the things you love.
All I wanted in my life were siblings to make fun of or argue with. I wanted the experience you saw on t.v. I had a sister who moved out before I could even know she ever lived under the same roof as I. I had another sister who was basically my baby-sitter and was 12 years older than I. I had a brother whom was 4 years older than I. I barely saw him, only on weekends when he visited my Dad. He then would go back to his home with his real Mom. They are all so far away now. I see them every so often, but I wish that I could rewind time and be with all 3 of them for every holiday. If a storm scared me I could have crawled into bed with one of my sisters. Wishing for closeness is kind of out of reach now. Since we all are grown old enough to have our own lives.
I know this isn't the worst scenario of a broken family, I am not trying to be selfish. It's just my view on what I wished my family wasn't like.
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