B.M.D. <3

I know I write about my boyfriend a lot, but I can't help it. :) This weekend he has been there for me. I came down with a stupid cold, and even though on Friday he couldn't see me...he was with me all day Saturday. He was putting cold washcloths on my forehead for me, gave me medicine, & even gave me a foot massage, haha. Today though I wrote something special for him and everyone who wants to read it:


2007


2009

Just think in 2006 you & me were two young kids that didn’t know what was coming at us. Once getting involved with each other’s hearts, we couldn’t let go. Ever since that first glimpse of the future I saw in your eyes, I’ve loved you. At first we knew nothing about one another. Sure, we made stupid mistakes in the beginning, but that’s how we grew together. And I know for a fact I made the bigger mistake in our relationship. Freshman year we went through too much to name. I didn’t start saying I love you to you until I knew that you loved me back. Actually I remember that conversation. It was on Thanksgiving when you first said, “ I Love You,” to me. My memories are so vivid; I wish I could put them into a movie for you just so you could understand. I know I hurt you; I want to make it up to you no matter what you say. Everyday of my life I will tell you I love you and how much you mean to me. In 2007 being without you was definitely the punishment I deserved. I wasn’t myself that year at all. I tried finding you in every guy I came across, but it wasn’t you. Not even close to being anything like you. In the back of my mind you sat. I heard your voice every time I was upset. I had hope that there was still some connection. Every one told me to move on. Chelsea tried helping me, but I wouldn’t give up. Without you there was a huge part of me missing. I would be happy at times, but eventually that would fade and I would need something else to distract my emptiness. That’s probably why I went out with a different guy every month sophomore year. I couldn’t make up my mind; I couldn’t find you. I thought you hated me to no end, I remember you saying you never wanted me back. I pushed those words away as far as I could to keep my hopes up. Then by the time 2008 summer came, my life was falling apart. Friends & family were slipping away and breaking apart. Summer was preoccupied with crying and wishing things never happened. I had to find some type of sanctuary. I got a hold of you. I called you on August 1st, 2008. We talked all night; I was crying that night with tears of guilt, relief, & happiness. I couldn’t sleep after that. I was too awed by the fact that I had a conversation with you, and my question of whether or not you hated me was answered. You didn’t hate me, you were just angry, and I know I was too. The first few months of junior year you were skeptical about whether or not you should be with me again. My plan was for you to fall in love with me again. I had no doubt about it; I was just waiting for you to tell me. After your boggled mind decided, on October 25th, 2008, you were mine again. In my mind though, I was always yours. Now it’s 2009, and we’ve been through so much, but we have the rest of our lives to venture through more. <3